Ideality

I often wish how good it would be if it were like that or like this. I imagine an ideal life and when I realise that the world differs from my vision of ideality, I get depressed.

But in reality, Ideality for each person is different and it is not necessary that everyone should speak the same language that I do or live in the same ideal world that I do. The trick to actually get out of depression is to never realise that Idealism, as nothing in this world is Ideal. Ideality is an illusion and is best kept that way. The more I try to realise that illusion and bring that to reality, the more I realise that the Ideal state is only an illusion and reality is always different.

BMS ! My Life

"BMS is a an ocean, an ocean of opportunities. We do not expect every student to excel in every field, but we do expect our students to explore every aspect of college life, be it studies, sports or extra curricular activites. Welcome to BMS."

Its been 10 years since I heard this statement which changed my life and yet it is soo fresh in my mind.

This was the unforgettable statement that our Mathematics Professor, Dr.G.N.Shekhar started our first class with in Engineering.Ever since there was no looking back for me.

That very statement changed my life. Be it sports, extra curriculars, academics, I have had the best taste of everything in BMS. What I probably missed out is Ragging, I was never ragged (can u believe it ???) and I didnt rag anyone through the 4 years of my college.

BMS has taught me values, given me the best of friends, whom I can never forget and will remain thankful to them through out my life for being with me through the worst phases of my life. I still remember the day when Sam, a dear friend of mine skipped his internals to donate blood to my father. Thanks a ton Sam, it still means a lot to me.

Those days of association with Illuminati, the wonderful team with a great leader like Kala, the days and nights of hard work to bring back UTSAV to life after a gap of 5 long years and taking a bow in front of that huge audience, I feel nostalgic :)

Not to forget "Chirantana", The Kannada Sangha as we called it, the 101 classroom where we held our events and nurtured it like it was our baby.

The people from Illuminati; Kala, RD, RKC, Mahi, PR, Silly, Somi, Sam, Mayur, Sandy, Chabbu, Roopak
my dear ones from Chirantana; Ashwini, Naga, Vinayak, Nuthan, Divya
my dearest seniors;Suresh Kirti and Dev
the wonderful and adventurours MC guys, Adya, Bharath, Samyukta, Vasanta, Yogi, Suneel, Manu
the vocal chords team; Pradeep, Adya, Karthik, Manu, Sajit and Sanil
my dear classmates;Pradeep, Chandana, Deepak, Smitha, Rashmi and the whole class.
my sweet juniors

All I have to say is I love you all. Thanks for making my life rich with lovely experiences that I can and shall not forget in my entire life. Thanks for being with me when I needed you guys the most.

BMS ROCKS and BULLZ RULE !!!!!!!!!!!!

Help yourself

No one can help you if you do not know how to help yourself.

Perfection ??

This is an imperfect world. Don't sweat it out to turn the whole damn world into a monument of perfection, just learn to be imperfect !

Masterpiece !

And here comes an another Masterpiece from the famous web designer Chitra Parashar.

Hmm, will wait for this day :)

BUSY !

This has been my Online Status for quite sometime now. Feels like I am a part of a movie in the fast forward mode.

I need Silence

The urge to excel in all I do is drifting me away from normalcy. Its driving me NUTS !!!!!!!!

Fusion and Confusion

What happens when related and unrelated thoughts fuse ?

CONFUSION !!!!!!!!!

Pleasant Surprise

Mail from a dear friend, finding a friend unexpectedly on social networks thru unexpected contacts, being wished first by the one whom you love, a coffee with a dear friend and many more such lovely instances have always enriched my treasury of memories.

But recently a gesture from a very dear friend of mine took me by a pleasant surprise. The door bell rang and I knew it was the man from the US Postal Department who was waiting at the door to have my book delivered.

I opened the door and was glad to find the postman, but surprisingly he had no book, but a smaller box which could not have fit in a book. The moment I saw my name as Chitra Parashar, I knew who had sent it. But was really curious to know what it had inside, and yes, the Mug it was with the lines " Kannada is a piece of me".

First time in my life so far I was soo pleasantly surprised and was delighted that my friend is soo thoughtful. This has been the best gift so far.

Thanks V !!!!!!!!

1st hand experience - I am an RJ !!!!!!!!!

As I am typing this post, I am listening to my first Radio program (as the RJ of the show) being aired .Mere words cannot explain how I am feeling right now. Completely out of this world !

I am conferencing with my team reviewing the show live ! Awesome !!:) I love this experience.

Dreams !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I get up everyday pondering over the dream I dreamt last night. It is said that people who dream are restless and their minds are always pre-occupied with something or the other.

It is true, at least in my case. I don’t know if my dreams are indicative of some activities unfinished or yet to be done. I often dream of exams, Yes ! Exams ! In reality, I love writing exams, but I dream of instances where I always reach late to the examination hall and have either missed an entry into the exam hall or am unable to complete the exam.

I wonder why ?

FEAR OF EXISTENCE

CONFUSED IS MY MIND,
ASKS ME IF IT SHOULD CRY
OR FIGHT IT OUT
SCARED TO DEATH
IT WANTS TO END ITSELF
AND REACH NOWHERE
FOR EVERYWHERE THERE IS NOTHING BUT FEAR ,
FEAR OF EXISTENCE

Past, Present and Future !

Past is HISTORY,
Future is MYSTERY
Present is a GIFT
Make the MOST of it !

How am I ?

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Ways Unknown !

Blind fold I walk, through the ways of life,

All unknown, with paths of piercing knives.

Escape in Silence !

Sometimes in life Silence has proved to be the best way of escape for me. There are so many feelings unshared, but lived to the fullest, sometimes with great joy and sometimes with unbearable pain. But Silence it is ! It has come to my rescue ; has taught me to shut up and then has listened to me in silence !

Blogger's Need Not Apply !

Keep your masks away, people want to see the real U !

Skeletons in the cupboard !

I saw myself playing with the mud

That lay in front of my home
I built a castle with it,
only to find it as mud again.

I went to learn with my best of pals
Played with them in the hot summer noons
I found myself drenching in rain
with those best pals having left me in pain


My dearest dad told me stories
Of the prince and princess, of the mouse and the cat
He gave me life and there I was
looking at him hoping he would come back


Together WE spoke at length from heart
shared each moment of life with warmth
I found myself in pitch dark
Without him around, I went blank


Here I am in this world of dark
In the world of memories so vast
I open my cupboard to find that
These have transformed into skeletons of my past

Quest of self

I often wonder who I am !

In this complex world, I am more often than not caught amidst contradicting states of mind. Courage, Fear, Clarity, Chaos, Vision, Confusion, Patience, Anger, Love, Hate, Philosophy, Rationalism, Emotions, Intense feelings, loneliness, companionship comprise the world for my mind.

My mind displays all these states to the world outside. But there is an INNER ME, which strives to be different and independent of all these states. My inner mind is a spirit, it’s a flame of spirituality, it is hidden deep inside my real conscience. When this Inner Me makes its presence felt, I feel I am in another world, a world of enlightenment.

This new inner world knows nothing about joy, sorrow, good and bad. It is the world of UNITY, the unity of all senses, the feeling of Integrity.

Often, I wonder if my inner world is my final destination, then why am I here in the world outside ? What is my purpose ? Is there any specific reason why I am here ? Is there some thing I have to achieve in this outer world to enter the inner world ? If the inner world is independent of the outside world, then how does it matter how I am in the outer world ?

These queries to self often lead me to a quest, a quest to learn about myself, and it all stops at the fundamental question “ Who am I ?” , the answer to which I am yet to find.

Read on...........

Read like there is an exam to wirte the next hour.