Monday, October 30, 2006

Quest of self

I often wonder who I am !

In this complex world, I am more often than not caught amidst contradicting states of mind. Courage, Fear, Clarity, Chaos, Vision, Confusion, Patience, Anger, Love, Hate, Philosophy, Rationalism, Emotions, Intense feelings, loneliness, companionship comprise the world for my mind.

My mind displays all these states to the world outside. But there is an INNER ME, which strives to be different and independent of all these states. My inner mind is a spirit, it’s a flame of spirituality, it is hidden deep inside my real conscience. When this Inner Me makes its presence felt, I feel I am in another world, a world of enlightenment.

This new inner world knows nothing about joy, sorrow, good and bad. It is the world of UNITY, the unity of all senses, the feeling of Integrity.

Often, I wonder if my inner world is my final destination, then why am I here in the world outside ? What is my purpose ? Is there any specific reason why I am here ? Is there some thing I have to achieve in this outer world to enter the inner world ? If the inner world is independent of the outside world, then how does it matter how I am in the outer world ?

These queries to self often lead me to a quest, a quest to learn about myself, and it all stops at the fundamental question “ Who am I ?” , the answer to which I am yet to find.

Friday, October 13, 2006

Read on...........


Read like there is an exam to wirte the next hour.