Quest of self

I often wonder who I am !

In this complex world, I am more often than not caught amidst contradicting states of mind. Courage, Fear, Clarity, Chaos, Vision, Confusion, Patience, Anger, Love, Hate, Philosophy, Rationalism, Emotions, Intense feelings, loneliness, companionship comprise the world for my mind.

My mind displays all these states to the world outside. But there is an INNER ME, which strives to be different and independent of all these states. My inner mind is a spirit, it’s a flame of spirituality, it is hidden deep inside my real conscience. When this Inner Me makes its presence felt, I feel I am in another world, a world of enlightenment.

This new inner world knows nothing about joy, sorrow, good and bad. It is the world of UNITY, the unity of all senses, the feeling of Integrity.

Often, I wonder if my inner world is my final destination, then why am I here in the world outside ? What is my purpose ? Is there any specific reason why I am here ? Is there some thing I have to achieve in this outer world to enter the inner world ? If the inner world is independent of the outside world, then how does it matter how I am in the outer world ?

These queries to self often lead me to a quest, a quest to learn about myself, and it all stops at the fundamental question “ Who am I ?” , the answer to which I am yet to find.

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Truth Triumphs !!!!!!!

One busy day at office ! Soccer Fever all around. Total choas, had to meet a deadline. I was asked to go to National Market to pick up a few movies based on soccer. Accompanying me was Mili, who was working as a trainee for a month with us. She hails from Mumbai.

It was around 6.30 pm and where would I find parking space ? Somehow I parked my vehicle in front of a shop in the parallel road. We quickly went to National Market, and paid visits to numerous CD shops, browsed through hundreds of CDs and managed to find few movies.

We wrapped up our work and walked towards the shop where my vehicle was parked. For a minute, I thought we had landed on a different street , I couldn't find my vehicle. I asked the shopkeeper and he asked me to go to Upperpet police station. Now we took a rickshaw to the police station, I still didnt find my vehicle there. On enquiring with the Inspeector, he re-directed us to the KSRTC bus stand, where such vehicles are dealt with.

I had never walked so fast in my life-time, it was as though I was participating in a marathon, poor Mili, she had to cope with my speed, or else she would get lost in Bangalore. We reached the police booth in the KSRTC bus stand. I still couldnt find my vehicle. The constable incharge told us that TIGER (the proud vehicle that carries violated vehicles in procession) had not yet arrived. As we waited with patience, the Inspector incharge arrived on the scene. He asked me the location where my vehicle was parked, I promptly told him the same and asked him why my vehicle was lifted from the spot, even when there was no "No Parking" sign any where near that spot.

He argued with me saying that the police are not fools and that such a thing couldnt have happened at all. I would not give up, cause I perfectly knew I had not parked it in the wrong place. I was not willing to pay a single paisa as fine. I argued saying that I was a responsible citizen and would never do such a thing, and that I had not violated any traffic rule so far. This dose of truth was enough for me to convince the inspector that I was right. He handed over a pink slip to me and said that I could take my vehicle from the parking space of the bus stand.

Within no time we disappeared from the police booth, payed Rs.5/- at the parking lot and escaped from the bus stand. Man ! that was a GREAT ESCAPE and TRIUMPH to TRUTH. Mili had a great experience to carry back with her to Mumbai.

Chi's World

Chi's World

Welcome to my world ! A world of rhythm, a world of joy, a world of confusion and fusion, a world within a world !